We need to talk…

I have been slacking so much. Honestly right when I started college it’s like I just dropped off. I had no inspiration for any blog post. Just in terms of the last few months, I have struggled with a few classes, lost a few friends and have come to see who my true friends are, the people who are there through thick and thin. I guess I have just had a big life epiphany when it comes to people in my life. And I am glad that it happened but it is also kind of sad. It sucks seeing the friends I have lost but I have also gained so many friends. With that being said, Do not be afraid to cut negative people out of your life. 

I have also seen that I am incredibly hard on myself. I have let my grades define who I am. It’s like I convince myself that I am going to fail even before I attempt something. I felt as if no matter how hard I try I will never be the perfect version of myself that I want to be. 

I am now trying to learn to catch myself when I get into this mindset. I don’t think it will be easy but it is all about taking that time to step back and reevaluate myself and realize that I am doing fine. I am trying my hardest in school, I am surrounding myself with so many amazing people, I am doing the best I can do. I have to get out of my own head and stop throwing myself a pity party. It is so ridiculous how much time and energy I was spending on telling myself that I am going to fail! I have to stop letting these thoughts weigh me down and stop letting them keep me from being the person I truly am. 

I felt as if the best way for me to end that chapter is to sit down and write this blog. Make it publicly known that I am going to stop trying to tear myself down. I am going to try and balance my life better. I want to go into this next semester empowered and driven. I have to learn to enjoy each moment and opportunity I am given rather than stressing out about what could happen. 

Thank you guys so much for letting me ramble to you. And I really appreciate you taking the time to read this. 

I love you guys to the moon and back!

𝕃𝕠𝕧𝕖, ℍ𝕒π•ͺ

One thought on “We need to talk…

  1. Wow! I can’t tell you how my feelings have been so similar to this recently. I haven’t been to church in about a year now and it feels quite lonely. I’m also hard on myself in every aspect, and it’s extremely hard to live that way; but hard to try and balance being accountable for yourself and pushing yourself too far. I know things will get better:) Love you girl!

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